Fear Of Clowns

I’m pleased to report my ankle is healed and I’m back on my feet. I’ve spent a lot of time cuddled up with the cats and watching some of the new TV shows that have started this season. There’s quite a few really good ones that have got me all excited!🙂

I think Frequency, Lethal Weapon and The Exorcist are among my favourites. And, as much as I really hate to admit it? I’m really enjoying the new MacGyver. S wanted to watch it to see how they weave the science and engineering into the storyline and I ended up watching it and… yeah, it’s ok. That kid is no Richard Dean Anderson and it’s not my MacyGyver but it’s watchable.

But that’s not what I opened up this ‘post an entry’ to talk about. It was either going to start with that or planwithme videos on Youtube because I’ve also been spending a lot of time playing catchup on those. They’re so relaxing. It’s not my style of planning, I tried it and it doesn’t work for me. I’m definitely sticking with my bujo but there’s something calming and relaxing and hynotic about watching people plan their weeks out and putting down stickers. I don’t know how or why but it is!

I’m going as off topic as a MacGyver voiceover here – stop me if I start telling tales about my grandather! LOL

I actually wanted to talk about something I don’t understand. Clowns. Or, why people are scared of them. I don’t get it. I don’t get it at all. It’s just a guy in some face paint, a wig, some colourful clothing and big shoes. They’re supposed to be funny – has no-one ever been to a circus and watched their routines? Or been squirted in the face with water from a plastic flower?
It’s all just basic slapstick comedy

Maybe it’s the fact my brain is wired differently from ‘normal’ but I really don’t associate them with fear but with laughter. I get that there’s scary clowns in horror movies but… those aren’t real. They’re stories. They’re fictional.

And I thought I was the one with the tenuous grip on reality…

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A little self-care

I have an ouchie. I’ve no idea how I’ve done it* but I’ve sprained my ankle – not badly just enough that it’s aching and I can’t put enough weight on it. Spent a couple of hours in A&E this morning, got it x-rayed to check it wasn’t broken. They’ve strapped it up, given me some painkillers and instructed me to rest it for a few days.

Which is how I’m sitting on the couch with my foot up on a stool. S made us a roast chicken dinner with all the trimmings which was delicious. And now we’re all curled up on the couch, with mugs of tea, under nice warm blankets with purring cats (and Odin flopped down over J’s feet) and we’re trying out some of the new season tv shows.

Some are hits, some are misses but it’s fun and it’s one of my favourite ways to spend time. Of course, S got all cranky with some of the science of time travel in Timeless. Although we do all agree that Hayley Atwell has amazing ass and tits in Conviction.

So yes, despite my ankle hurting, I’m focusing on the positive. I’m warm, I’m comfy, I’m snuggled up under blankets with the people I love, I have apple and cinnamon tea and I’m spending an afternoon watching TV… what’s not to enjoy about that?

* Actually, I know exactly what I’ve done to it. J’s got himself all interested in predicament bondage…and this is not a complaint because that is just fun! But when we were playing this morning, I wobbled a little too much and went over on my ankle. Oops!

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The Good Life

It’s not something you often see people saying online but things are really good right. I’m really content, really happy and yeah, things are good.

My health is about as stable as it gets – good combination of medication and therapy and my support group.

S is home from her research position in Manchester. She’s still flying high from it but she’s also really enjoying being back to teaching. She loves doing both and J and I love seeing her so happy and energised. She has this… glow, this aura around her and it’s infectious. I hope it’s inspiring her students to see how excited someone can get.

We spent a few weeks reconnecting as a family, just enjoying spending time together – doing stuff and… not doing stuff and simply being together. We really do work in sync so much better when the three of us are togther – it just… works. We’re definitely all happier.

Now, things are back to normal and the usual routines are back in place and everything is just wonderful🙂

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That moment when… you completely forget about the existence of the internet for a couple of months, and then you come online to over 100 emails.

Guess I know what I’ll be doing this weekend!

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Lonely but grateful

I do not like sleeping alone. We have this lovely huge bed but last night it seemed some vast expanse of emptiness. I kept rolling over and there was no-one pressed up against me, no-one to cuddle up to. It took me ages over the last couple of weeks to get used to mostly just having J in the bed so being on my own last night was horrible. And there’s still two more nights of it.

Monday will come soon enough though and I will have my bed back the way I like it, even if it’s only for one night before S is back to Manchester.

I should be grateful though.
We have a comfortable enough life that S is able to just whisk J away for their anniversary.
We have this huge, comfortable bed.
And I have the two best people in the world to share it with.
I have family who understand that it’s not necessarily safe for me to be left alone for too long – and who don’t mind ‘babysitting’ me for the weekend.
I’m spending quality time with my little sister enjoying some fun movies and tv shows, and sampling some of the best delivery service the town provides.

Life is good. I shouldn’t complain – but I do miss J&S something fierce!

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Wedding Anniversaries and Superhero Marathons

Happy 12th wedding anniversary to my J&S. ♥
And they’re still so completely in love, you should see the way they look at each other!

She came back from Manchester late last night to surprise J and she’s whisked him away to New York for the weekend to celebrate which gives me chance to prep for my surprise when they come home. 12th anniversary is traditionally silk so I’ve got them (ok, us LOL) some gorgeous new silk sheets😀
He got her some very sexy silk lingerie and a beatiful pearl necklace

I’ve had a quick phonecall from S to let me know her and J arrived safely in New York so that’s one less thing to worry about.

My little sister Polly has come to stay with me for the weekend and we’re just having a pause in the middle of having an MCU marathon. The plan is to watch as many of the tv shows/movies in internal chronological order, because we are complete geeks. It was her idea but I have no complaints about it. I know we won’t get the whole thing done in one weekend but at least we have plans for… quite a few weekends over the rest of the year haha.

So far today we’ve watched Captain America: The First Avenger and the first three episodes of Agent Carter. We’re taking a quick break, ordering in some takeout, refreshing drinks, doing some stretches before we dive back in with the rest of the show.

I do love me some Peggy Carter. That Hayley Atwell is one fine looking lady.
I’d love to know how they make Chris Evans look so scrawny in Captain America. That man is many things but puny he is not! He is also one fine looking man!

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Lucy Lives!


So it seems to have been quite a few weeks since I posted here. It’s been quite a few weeks since I was online, in fact and I’ve spent most of the last 4 hours clearing out 5-6 weeks worth of email. I’m mostly caught up with that now and find myself here catching up on your blogs and reading about what you’ve been up to. I doubt I’ll get completely up-to-date though so… tell me what you’ve been up to?!

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